Just an update really,
so school is going ok, trying to keep on top of all my work is proving a little difficult but i'm getting there.
i've been chosen as one of the student reps for RE, YAAAAY (i do not care how sad that sounds, i love RE). I also helped them out on open evening, and i have to say, i did a pretty ace job :P
ummm, friend wise everything is ok. missing G though, seeing him tomorrow for his birthday!
had a meeting with someone the other day, it was good,made me cry, but it's made me think.
and i need to tell someone something but i ended up doing the thing i said i wasn't going to do D: but i will tell them next time we speak. also trying out talking to him again, it's going well, because this time it really is a just a friendship level and i'm not expecting anything of it. need to talk to T and AJ about it, but they seem to have dissapeared! i will see them tomorrow anyway.
my mum keeps coming in and out of my room asking for my opinion on her outfit, has she not seen the way i dress?!
and to borrow my make-up and straightners, in some ways my mum is like having a sister. I am so glad i have an older brother.
anyhoo, hope everyone is well
Ruby xx
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
just to let you know
Toby was put to sleep today, at 10.43 this morning. He went quickly and peacefully. Lucy is ok, but is not quite herself.
Toby is buried in our back garden, and we have all planted a plant next to his grave, we have also tied his dog tags to out magnolia tree next to the grave. He will truely be missed by myself, my mum, brother, nan and Lucy. He was odd dog, but he was ours. And i'll miss the way he used to bounce when he barked, the way he sat with his front paws pointing outwards, when he used to 'fetch' the mail (really he just chewed it up), the way he always went to his bed at 7, the wonder of how he learned to turn the radiator on, they way he just looked at you so intensely but he had one ear sticking up and the other down, the way his tongue poked out, his love for sunday roasts, and how he actually looked like he was smiling when he was running around the fields.
Rest In Peace Tobes, I hope you get all the sunday roast you want now :)
Love Ruby xxxxx
Toby is buried in our back garden, and we have all planted a plant next to his grave, we have also tied his dog tags to out magnolia tree next to the grave. He will truely be missed by myself, my mum, brother, nan and Lucy. He was odd dog, but he was ours. And i'll miss the way he used to bounce when he barked, the way he sat with his front paws pointing outwards, when he used to 'fetch' the mail (really he just chewed it up), the way he always went to his bed at 7, the wonder of how he learned to turn the radiator on, they way he just looked at you so intensely but he had one ear sticking up and the other down, the way his tongue poked out, his love for sunday roasts, and how he actually looked like he was smiling when he was running around the fields.
Rest In Peace Tobes, I hope you get all the sunday roast you want now :)
Love Ruby xxxxx
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
:(
Toby (my elder dog) is so ill.
He has arthirtis, which we've known for some months now (and blogged about?) and we thought he'd gotten better. But, today he could barely walk and he kept falling over, so my Nan and brother took him to the vets where they gave him an injection to numb the pain for a bit and some tablets for the next couple of weeks. We brought him home and he seemed fine, until about 3 hours ago when he had a fit. My mum rang the vets and they said to bring him to the vets as soon as possible, so my brother and mum took him while i stayed at home to look after Lucy (our other dog). Lucy was distressed after being left alone all day without Toby. Mum and Joe came home, Toby had had another fit at the vets. The possible causes are either epilepsey or a tumor. He now has even more medication and cannot move. So now he's stuck in his basket whimpering and crying and having mini fits and about 2 hours ago another big fit. And i don't know if any of you have seen a loved one or pet having a fit, but it has to be one of the most distressing and upsetting things ever to witness. I can't begin to explain it. I don't really know what i'm doing, i'm trying to do work but all the words start to blur. I'm not going to be able to concentrate tomorrow, and i keep getting massive headaches.
Sorry for being depressive,
Ruby xx
He has arthirtis, which we've known for some months now (and blogged about?) and we thought he'd gotten better. But, today he could barely walk and he kept falling over, so my Nan and brother took him to the vets where they gave him an injection to numb the pain for a bit and some tablets for the next couple of weeks. We brought him home and he seemed fine, until about 3 hours ago when he had a fit. My mum rang the vets and they said to bring him to the vets as soon as possible, so my brother and mum took him while i stayed at home to look after Lucy (our other dog). Lucy was distressed after being left alone all day without Toby. Mum and Joe came home, Toby had had another fit at the vets. The possible causes are either epilepsey or a tumor. He now has even more medication and cannot move. So now he's stuck in his basket whimpering and crying and having mini fits and about 2 hours ago another big fit. And i don't know if any of you have seen a loved one or pet having a fit, but it has to be one of the most distressing and upsetting things ever to witness. I can't begin to explain it. I don't really know what i'm doing, i'm trying to do work but all the words start to blur. I'm not going to be able to concentrate tomorrow, and i keep getting massive headaches.
Sorry for being depressive,
Ruby xx
Sunday, September 13, 2009
pearl harbour sucked and i still miss you
i just watched Team America <3
sorry to anyone that actually reads my blog, i don't post regulary.
I need to lose some weight! it's got really bad, my stomach actually sticks out now, like properly :( i'll have to get back into my old routine.
after being told it's be sorted by the time i get back to school, and then coming back and having to wait a week, i'm finally in a Sociology class! it was really getting me down but now i'm happy and i can settle in properly.
i can't really think of anything else i've been doing, i bought a few things this weekend, a new bag, which i absolutely adore but i know someone else has it so i don't know what to do, a new vest from zara which is lovely, one new shirt also from zara, a patterned top and a long grey cardigan, so slowly but surely i am re-doing my whole wardrobe, i just need to get paid!
which brings me onto my job, it's going really well. i work with N and i clean L-Block, so if you take english don't you dare mess up the rooms! i enjoy it actually, N and i have our own system so we get it done quite quickly. i don't work modays anymore though, i thought maybe i'd do mondays again after i come back from Australia.
So yes, i am spending christmas in Australia, the whole of december. I don't know whether to be happy about it, which makes me sound like an ungrateful bitch, and i'm sure your all slightly jealous of it (in a non big headed way) but everytime i go, it sucks. there is always a massive arguement and everyone falls out and someone usually gets physically hurt. but i'm trying to stay positive, i haven't had a christmas with my dad for about 3 maybe even 4 years now.
anyhoo, i hope everyone is enjoying sixth form :)
Ruby xx
sorry to anyone that actually reads my blog, i don't post regulary.
I need to lose some weight! it's got really bad, my stomach actually sticks out now, like properly :( i'll have to get back into my old routine.
after being told it's be sorted by the time i get back to school, and then coming back and having to wait a week, i'm finally in a Sociology class! it was really getting me down but now i'm happy and i can settle in properly.
i can't really think of anything else i've been doing, i bought a few things this weekend, a new bag, which i absolutely adore but i know someone else has it so i don't know what to do, a new vest from zara which is lovely, one new shirt also from zara, a patterned top and a long grey cardigan, so slowly but surely i am re-doing my whole wardrobe, i just need to get paid!
which brings me onto my job, it's going really well. i work with N and i clean L-Block, so if you take english don't you dare mess up the rooms! i enjoy it actually, N and i have our own system so we get it done quite quickly. i don't work modays anymore though, i thought maybe i'd do mondays again after i come back from Australia.
So yes, i am spending christmas in Australia, the whole of december. I don't know whether to be happy about it, which makes me sound like an ungrateful bitch, and i'm sure your all slightly jealous of it (in a non big headed way) but everytime i go, it sucks. there is always a massive arguement and everyone falls out and someone usually gets physically hurt. but i'm trying to stay positive, i haven't had a christmas with my dad for about 3 maybe even 4 years now.
anyhoo, i hope everyone is enjoying sixth form :)
Ruby xx
Saturday, September 05, 2009
never again
i went to a tent party last night, and it was an ok night, but i'm never going it again.
for one it was fucking freezing, secondly me and B were about to fall asleep and then in came T and J (bare it in mind that it's about 4ish in the morning) and wouldn't get out, or shut up, or go get there own sleeping bags! so me and B had to share his, and i was just shivering all the time :( then J wakes me and B up by going "GOOD MORNING" and me forgetting where i was turned over, moaned then curled up into a ball and hid under the sleeping bag. it was 6 o'clock in the morning. i got 2 hours of freezing sleep last night(this morning).
But apart from that it was a quite good night, T was very very drunk, quite funny actually. she was handed a can of Carling and leaned onto J and declared loudly "I'm drinking Carlingssss" and she kept calling it that. then she kept asking where her sister was, and we all went "she's not here" and she went "good, good, good." then anytime i went off without telling her where i was going, or she forgot where i went she went screaming round the tents "WHERE'S RUBY? I NEED RUBY WHERE IS SHE?" but to be honest she doesn't get drunk all that much and i told that tonight she could and i'd look after her.
But yeh, it was a good night but i'm not doing it again.
i finally stood my ground with him, i told him what he did to me, playing around with my emotions and messing me about, i didn't deserve any of it. and that i'm going to find someone who actually loves me and who deserves me. he took great offence, and tbh i hope he went and cried or something because he has made me cry over and over. i still love him, of course, but hopefully i'll start to get over him soon. but right now i'm just focusing on school, work and my friends and that's how i want it to be for a while. but yeh i feel good that i finally told him where to go :)
Hope everyone is well
Ruby xx
for one it was fucking freezing, secondly me and B were about to fall asleep and then in came T and J (bare it in mind that it's about 4ish in the morning) and wouldn't get out, or shut up, or go get there own sleeping bags! so me and B had to share his, and i was just shivering all the time :( then J wakes me and B up by going "GOOD MORNING" and me forgetting where i was turned over, moaned then curled up into a ball and hid under the sleeping bag. it was 6 o'clock in the morning. i got 2 hours of freezing sleep last night(this morning).
But apart from that it was a quite good night, T was very very drunk, quite funny actually. she was handed a can of Carling and leaned onto J and declared loudly "I'm drinking Carlingssss" and she kept calling it that. then she kept asking where her sister was, and we all went "she's not here" and she went "good, good, good." then anytime i went off without telling her where i was going, or she forgot where i went she went screaming round the tents "WHERE'S RUBY? I NEED RUBY WHERE IS SHE?" but to be honest she doesn't get drunk all that much and i told that tonight she could and i'd look after her.
But yeh, it was a good night but i'm not doing it again.
i finally stood my ground with him, i told him what he did to me, playing around with my emotions and messing me about, i didn't deserve any of it. and that i'm going to find someone who actually loves me and who deserves me. he took great offence, and tbh i hope he went and cried or something because he has made me cry over and over. i still love him, of course, but hopefully i'll start to get over him soon. but right now i'm just focusing on school, work and my friends and that's how i want it to be for a while. but yeh i feel good that i finally told him where to go :)
Hope everyone is well
Ruby xx
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