ewww

blood test was gross :(

and I'm not a very squeamish person, but god it weirded me out!

first day back was okkkkk,

although, I nearly punched one of my class mates in the face. if I had of done it, he totally deserved it.

my plan didn't start so well, I think I might start it next week instead :D

or perhaps I could start it sooner...hmmm, we'll see :P

got something else happening right now, deal with that first.

I'm gonna watch Russell Howard now, because I LOVE HIM. (L)

Favourite PostSecret recently:

so what's changed?

I really, really, really don't understand why you've turned into such a fucking knob.

is it because you're 'in love', really? BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT!

and stop trying to pretend you are.

and even if you are 'in love' it doesn't mean we still can't be friends and you can treat me like crap.

y'know sometimes I just want to tell her, and I mean it. But I love you too much (as a friend) to ever do that, but you don't seem to understand.

please will you stop being a twat, I'd really appreciate having my friend back.

diaognosis doctor

well apparantly this cold thingy i've had, well pretty much since i've been back, might be glandular fever :/
so i'm having an ever so wonderful blood test on monday at 12.00 :(
and if it's not glandular fever it's probably tonsilitis, but i don't think it is cause i've had that before and it's not the same this time.

AND THE SNOW ISN'T HELPING.

my mum thought i was depressed, cause apparnatly sleeping all the time is a sign of depression, and irregular sleeping patterns and stuff, but now we knowwww. she still keeps being all concerned, but i'm not depressed, well i don't think i am!
however she bought me malteasers and milky bar yoghurts :D

i think i might do productive things today, like homework.
i really want to go to the cinema, however this is not an option seeing as i can't get there, and if i did i'd probably just sleep.
yeah i do that a lot, sleep. i take naps and stuff, and i'm permently tired :( i just wanna be better.

so this was basically one big moan,
sorry
xx

change is coming?

i think so, don't know what yet but i can feel it coming :/

dyed my hair yesterday, nearly looks exactly like my natural colour :D which i'm happy about, i do love my dark hair.
also used skype for the first time which was a strange but funny experience, a 1 and 50minute conversation with A from Australia! hopefully talk to him again on monday, or sometime soon lol :)

so, LT, AJ are now both in relationships (this is old news i just haven't blogged about it) which is good because i've never seen the both of them so happy!
i think AJs girlfriend is gorgeoussss! she's nice too, and is not worried by my odd nature, i think she's a keeper AJ!
and LTs boyfriend is nice, a bit quiet, but he's nice. however, she's in that absorbed stage atm so i feel like i haven't really got to talk to her properly since i've been back, which really sucks. someone else commented on this too, but he doesn't want to bring it up with her, and tbh neither do i because i've never seen her like this, so i think i'll just give it time and hopefully things will smooth out :)

redecorating my house soon, the new theme (old theme; pink, purple reds) for my room is; Silver, Black and Grey :D got some wicked new wall paper that is silver with a black pattern that's of a tree with birds and flowers :)

my mum just walked in and went "I'M BAAAACK, heres a bar of chocolate for you"
LEGEND (L) (she also got me a 'I love Russell Howard' badge when i got back, double legend!!)
it's her birthday next sunday (the 7th) got her Tru Blood season one and a dragonfly necklace, cause i love her lots.
i got LT presents too, in-ear headphones and mismatching earrings, and a WICKED card that says 'Sex, Drugs & Rock'n'Roll (are all bad things of course)' which i found rather funny :D



as for the old love life, not much is going down tbhhh, as explained to AJ earlier i keep blurting out random shit infront of guys for example:
*cute checkout guy at morroways who i usually talk to*
Checkout guy: Hi *smiles, keeps looking at me*
Me: I'm with my mum.
I MEAN WTH? sometimes i need a muzzle

:) btw i'm a Gleek, apologies xx

AHHHHH

confusion/excitement
AJ knows what i'm talking about
eeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not having the best start to the new year

maybe it actually was all my fault?


i miss australia.

school was ok, it was nice to see everyone and have a good catch up :) really hating the snow, i feel so stiff and cold :(

this post is pointless, but then so am i.

singapore

airport is getting very tiring and boring now, been for far too long! did not sleep so well last night on some chairs we found, missing my bed big time!
anyway we have about 1 and 1/2 hours left until our flight, joyus times. i need ot finish off watching wanted!!! :P

anyway i shall stop abusing the free internet service and find somewhere to sit and read Cosmo (i'm converted, still adore Empire though)
see you all soon xx

just a short post!

flying home today, BOOOOOOO!!

i don't want to leave :( i'm definately going to come to Uni here, i love it so much!

well can't wait to see my mum and sleep in my own bed, but thats about it! lol
nah i miss some of you guys of course :P

see you all soon xxxx

hey it's nealry christmas!

only just realised, yes, sorry, i'm slow, christmas is relaxed here.

so i've just got back form a weekend away in Geraldton, we went down to Kate and Michaels house (where we were saying) and we went out on Michaels boat for a bit, but then (for the first time) i started feeling sea sick, and so did Kate, so they took us back and Kate, Joe and myself sat on the jetty waiting for them to come back, then they did and we went home. the next day Michael left for work (mines, so he was gone for 4 days) and Joe and Dad went out on the boat again, and me and Kate went to the beach and had a little swim then went back and watched films all day :). then in the evening we went to Bucks 40th (the reason we went down) and had a really really good time, it was 80s themed but we just went in normal clothes. i met two really great guys, Ben and Shaun. Ben, who is in his 20s i think, was dressed in blue jeans, studded belt, sleeveless top, a mullet wig and sunglasses, he put a bandanna on my head and called me karate kid for the rest of the night, talked to me about red wine being an aphrodisiac, danced with me a little and gave me a shoulder massage. then Shaun, he was dressed in black skinnies, a black vest, and big Doc Martins, he was an awful dancer but so funny, obsessed with Cockneys and Guy Ritchie films (Snatch etc.), told us to keep talking to him because he loved our accent, told me i was more like a mature Aussie 20 year old, paid me a compliment which was: 'you're a very very attractive young woman, and i'm a married man, but you're very attractive, and if i wasn't married...' i stopped him there lol. unfortunately there were 3 fights, but it was good, and i didn't want to leave but we did then we went home. we all woke up hungover, well Joe was still drunk, i had food posioning and a hangover, but we went into town and had a walk baout, then we went to the beach then back home were we met Terry and Jackie and there kids. then we left the next day, met up with Buck and Ben who gave us ten crayfish for christmas, and hopefully, we should all be going on a fishing trip to some islands!

but thats about it really, i would say more but i'm lazy. i doubt i'll post before christmas but i hope you all have a really really good day and i hope Santa brings you what you want :)
i'm going to be in the heat eating Snapper and Crayfish :D
OH, i have a tan, big news, and my knees are now vair vair freckley :P
anyhoo, i'm hungry and thirsty, so i should probably make some breakfast,
BYEEE MISS YOU XXXXX

AUSTRALIAAAAA

it's 2.16 in the afternoon and the temperature is 26 degrees, clear blue skies all the way, and it's set to reatch the 30s later on this week ;)

Singapore airport is AMAZING, i mean it has a butterfly garden and a pond with humungous fish inside the airport :O!

i was really good on the plain jourey(s) this time, i ate two whole meals :D and i didn't throw any of it up, *feels proud*

i've already been out on my dads new boat, he let me drive it and i floored it, apparantly i've hurt joes back, but whatever, he shouldn't be such a girl.

i'm supposed to be typing up my c/w, but dads trial on word has finished so i can't do anything :( speaking of dad he should've been back by now, which means he is most likely at the pub, bummer.

we had a bbq yesterday, ummmm, it was yummy! then Brandon but a cigarette in Baby's (the parrot) mouth, which was quite entertaining :P

I've just signed onto msn, and NO ONE is online. suppose i should've gone on earlier, cause everyone back home is zzzz-ing now, i did fancy a chin-wag though :P

anyway, need to try and sort this word thing out,

BYEEEE

Ruby xx

assessment points

i hope you're pleased with yours,
mine goes:
English Lit - C
Psychology - D (but i know why and if i'd done the work properly it'd most likely of been a B)
Religious Stuides - B
Sociology - B

:) pretty happy with them

right at the moment i'm backing up the files on my laptop so they can fix it, and i've just realised how much music and how many photos i have :/
it's taken 5 discs to back up my music, 1 disc to back up my school work, and i've got to attempt to use the other 4 discs to back up my pictures, i highly doubt they will all go on.

i have a new camera!!! it's an olympus x-42 and cost me like £62 from argos :D it's pretty good and it'll do me for aus

went to the doctors today, and i have to go back on regular (one in the morning and one at night) seretide :( and i have ventolin for when i need it. and i had a flu jab, sometime i really hate being asthmatic.
on the plus side my BMI is still perfect :)

Ruby xx

finally

i'm actually getting better, just a slight cough left! woooooo!

so this half term has been a slight fail, first off i did end up going to that party, as soon as i got there i started to feel really ill and kept trying to get my mum to pick me up but i ended up staying til 11.30 with T. wasn't the best, i hate being the sober one at parties, i ended up looking after T all night who foolishly had a bit too much weed and kept chucking up, lovely. then there was K who had been in the hot box room but had also drank a lot of malibu and vodka, and B who had about 6 spliffs to himself. i was glad to leave in all honestly. (i am sort of glad i went otherwise T would have been in JBs care, so she would have seriously been fucked)

so i ended up living a Ts for two days, and i never left the house in that time so when i went home on wednesday it was weird lol. and with all the days i've had left i've been playing The Urbz (don't laugh, it gets addictive) so homework will be done tomorrow, well all the homework for monday will be (psychology, sociology and english lit), then monday night i will do my essay for tuesday and then psychology for wednesday and my other essay for friday.

41 days until i leave for Australia, actually quite excited. i need to buy a bikini (shock!!!) only because i actually want a tan. and i'm buying all the christmas presents here and taking them over, then only taking a bit of money, cause i'm going to give everyone here their presents before i go. WOOO :D

Ruby xx

not going

to the party on monday night

i am so ill, i can't even put it into words, it's like a super bad cold mixed with tonsilitus with nausea put on top. and everything, i mean everything, hurts and aches, and i keep going dizzy :(
i've just been sick, feel like i might be again.
and i know this sounds geeky but i really wanted to be able to do some really high standard homework this week, but now i can't

ughhhh i want to curl up into a ball and die

:( covonia sucks

i'm ill, it sucks, plus there's a party on monday night and i'm not sure if i'm going to be better by then.

and do i stay over with B at Js house where i've never been before, or do i go home with T and JB and walk to my house from there?

i'll probably stay but it means catching the bus to my nans in the morning when i'm hungover, hmmm



i got an A in my sociology test :D and another B in my RE essay, i'm really thinking of taking sociology at uni, Miss K says i'm one of the best in her class and i have the ability to get an A in it, woooo :) Psychology is not what i expected though, i'm only enjoying Skubs lessons hmmm, and English Lit sucks right now i totally regret taking it tbh.



About 6 weeks til Australia, getting excited now.. :D

Going to see Up in a bit, more excitement



Ruby xx

Guilty Pleasures

Idea stolen off Jordan and Greenpanda

Numero One: Dancing to music around my house in a t-shirt and pants, usually to trashy rock/pop music that all have same beat

Two: Taking stupid pointless quizzes on facebook.

Three: Heels, if i wasn't so tall i'd wear them all the time

Four: Red lipstick, just timelessly sexy

Five: Really long, hot showers

Six: Films with guns and hit men, i have a thing for a bit of action every now and then

Seven: Burning paper, i have no idea what it is about it, i just love doing it and i love the smell

Eight: Homemade cookies and pomegranate ice cream

Nine: Walking with my hood/umberella down when it's raining heavily

Ten: Guys with loads of tattoos and big arms

is alone, completely alone, and she feels it.

Hi guys,
I should really try and post regulary, it's just my life is so intensely boring right now.

So, not really sure what I'm going to post about, just the general I suppose, here goes:
I'll start with school; I'm enjoying all my lessons, work is building up though, and I'm really getting fustrated with myself about Psych work because I just can't seem to understand it (which is not good when you want to be a psychologist) and i really want to get As in everything but right now I really don't think i'll be able to :(. I have a meeting tomorrow, I hope i don't cry like last time, although i have break after this on so it's ok.
Work; s'ok, had a few funny days last week and it's been ok so far this week. I just want to get paid again :P, actually that reminds me I need to check how much is in my bank account.
Friends/Social life (or lack of); things are good, B, T and me all hung out t'other night and it was fun :). AJ and me lost our rags at each other yesterday, I found it quite funny, but no hard feelings :). Haven't seen G-man in a while though, spoke to him yesterday, he's taking his theory tomorrow! (so good luck to him)

Boys are confusing, I wish he could just tell me straight how he feels, I think it's fairly obvious how I feel about him.

Really loving Paramore's new album! Misguided Ghosts gives me goosebumps.

Anyway, short post, sorry, hope you're all good
Ruby xx

just a quick blog

Just an update really,
so school is going ok, trying to keep on top of all my work is proving a little difficult but i'm getting there.
i've been chosen as one of the student reps for RE, YAAAAY (i do not care how sad that sounds, i love RE). I also helped them out on open evening, and i have to say, i did a pretty ace job :P

ummm, friend wise everything is ok. missing G though, seeing him tomorrow for his birthday!
had a meeting with someone the other day, it was good,made me cry, but it's made me think.
and i need to tell someone something but i ended up doing the thing i said i wasn't going to do D: but i will tell them next time we speak. also trying out talking to him again, it's going well, because this time it really is a just a friendship level and i'm not expecting anything of it. need to talk to T and AJ about it, but they seem to have dissapeared! i will see them tomorrow anyway.


my mum keeps coming in and out of my room asking for my opinion on her outfit, has she not seen the way i dress?!
and to borrow my make-up and straightners, in some ways my mum is like having a sister. I am so glad i have an older brother.

anyhoo, hope everyone is well
Ruby xx

just to let you know

Toby was put to sleep today, at 10.43 this morning. He went quickly and peacefully. Lucy is ok, but is not quite herself.

Toby is buried in our back garden, and we have all planted a plant next to his grave, we have also tied his dog tags to out magnolia tree next to the grave. He will truely be missed by myself, my mum, brother, nan and Lucy. He was odd dog, but he was ours. And i'll miss the way he used to bounce when he barked, the way he sat with his front paws pointing outwards, when he used to 'fetch' the mail (really he just chewed it up), the way he always went to his bed at 7, the wonder of how he learned to turn the radiator on, they way he just looked at you so intensely but he had one ear sticking up and the other down, the way his tongue poked out, his love for sunday roasts, and how he actually looked like he was smiling when he was running around the fields.

Rest In Peace Tobes, I hope you get all the sunday roast you want now :)

Love Ruby xxxxx

:(

Toby (my elder dog) is so ill.

He has arthirtis, which we've known for some months now (and blogged about?) and we thought he'd gotten better. But, today he could barely walk and he kept falling over, so my Nan and brother took him to the vets where they gave him an injection to numb the pain for a bit and some tablets for the next couple of weeks. We brought him home and he seemed fine, until about 3 hours ago when he had a fit. My mum rang the vets and they said to bring him to the vets as soon as possible, so my brother and mum took him while i stayed at home to look after Lucy (our other dog). Lucy was distressed after being left alone all day without Toby. Mum and Joe came home, Toby had had another fit at the vets. The possible causes are either epilepsey or a tumor. He now has even more medication and cannot move. So now he's stuck in his basket whimpering and crying and having mini fits and about 2 hours ago another big fit. And i don't know if any of you have seen a loved one or pet having a fit, but it has to be one of the most distressing and upsetting things ever to witness. I can't begin to explain it. I don't really know what i'm doing, i'm trying to do work but all the words start to blur. I'm not going to be able to concentrate tomorrow, and i keep getting massive headaches.

Sorry for being depressive,
Ruby xx

pearl harbour sucked and i still miss you

i just watched Team America <3

sorry to anyone that actually reads my blog, i don't post regulary.

I need to lose some weight! it's got really bad, my stomach actually sticks out now, like properly :( i'll have to get back into my old routine.

after being told it's be sorted by the time i get back to school, and then coming back and having to wait a week, i'm finally in a Sociology class! it was really getting me down but now i'm happy and i can settle in properly.
i can't really think of anything else i've been doing, i bought a few things this weekend, a new bag, which i absolutely adore but i know someone else has it so i don't know what to do, a new vest from zara which is lovely, one new shirt also from zara, a patterned top and a long grey cardigan, so slowly but surely i am re-doing my whole wardrobe, i just need to get paid!

which brings me onto my job, it's going really well. i work with N and i clean L-Block, so if you take english don't you dare mess up the rooms! i enjoy it actually, N and i have our own system so we get it done quite quickly. i don't work modays anymore though, i thought maybe i'd do mondays again after i come back from Australia.
So yes, i am spending christmas in Australia, the whole of december. I don't know whether to be happy about it, which makes me sound like an ungrateful bitch, and i'm sure your all slightly jealous of it (in a non big headed way) but everytime i go, it sucks. there is always a massive arguement and everyone falls out and someone usually gets physically hurt. but i'm trying to stay positive, i haven't had a christmas with my dad for about 3 maybe even 4 years now.

anyhoo, i hope everyone is enjoying sixth form :)
Ruby xx